Thanksgiving '09

Since Thanksgiving is the holiday most dedicated toward eating, I figure I need to post something. Because of my work schedule I had celebrated thanksgiving on Wednesday this year. I invited all my friends over for an all day event. Eating and Movies all day long. No one really showed up til 5 anyway. As for eating I wasn't really that hungry all day long. I took a Stacker 3 in the morning for the energy, and granted it staves off the appetite, but I just never got that hungry. I think it was mostly because I was hosting the party and always trying to be thinking of what the guests needed.

My other theory of the lack of hunger is this; I'm a big fan of eating 6 meals a day. It ups your metabolism, and helps your body work better. Your body is constantly proccessing food, and most of all, is not in starvation mode, so it won't store fat. When you do this, your stomach shrinks, and you are no longer able to eat such large portions. Yes, you can always stretch it back out and eat more, but right now, my stomach is pretty small. I've been complaining for the last few weeks about the fact that I can't eat a lot, cause I get full fast. Now the disadvantage to the 6 meals a day diet and getting out of starvation mode is that you have to eat often, and if you wait a little too long suddenly you are starving and feel like you want to eat everything in sight. I'm thinking the fact that I was snacking all day long yesterday, kept my tummy happy.

Soon, I will post some blogs, detailing my diet and how I've actually come to loose all this weight, but I do want to stress, that my diet has not changed a lot. True I try and eat salads daily, and in general eat healthy, but I still eat pizza, and starchy and fatty foods on a regular basis. The biggest thing about me is portion control.

Well readers, I'm gonna go to bed, so have a good night, and again thanks for following my blog. CM

Did you get your tickets to the gun show?

I am a fan/follower of Bo Dixon, on Facebook. He's a very hot Bodybuilder/model. It's actually due to one of his posts that i started this blog, but that's a story for another night. So the other day, for a topic of discussion, he asked people to post their favorite muscle pick up lines. Ones like, "Someone call a vet, cause these pythons are sick." I love those quotes. The guy who uses them on me and can pull them off, I will give him anything he wants (My body mind and soul, money, credit rating, anything.) LOL. Well, I started using them on everyone at work. We were laughing so hard, and it was just a fun day.

As the day went on, and I kept finding people to use them on, my ego started to really get inflated. I found it interesting that even though I was doing these as a joke to make people laugh, I was still digging into a part of my subconcious that enjoys the fact that I have huge arms and legs and retain muscle easily. It really was alot like a high. I can see why guys can get that huge egotistical attitude going, it's very addicting.

Another interesting thing I found is the response women had to me. Most of the women I work with pretty much laughed because they knew I wasn't serious, although some are still annoyed with me.

In the last year or so, I've noticed certain women, ones in their late 30's and 40's, will extra attentive to me, flirting with me in a way. In fact I had one lady tonight tell me I was Gorgeous. Not even subtle, although she was drunk. So anyway, yesterday I was on my high, and I found I had negative energy coming at me from the same type of women, without me even saying anything about my guns or pythons. I tried to compliment one lady on her bracelet, that was quite spectacular, and she replied, "all guys tell me that" with a snotty attitude.

I really think those women were sensing that ego bubble that I was floating on, and did not like it.

Well these were just some thoughts of mine that I thought I would share.

In the words of the legendary Miss Britney Spears,
"Confidence is a must, Cockiness is a plus" (I love Britney, she just gets me) CM

Fat Pride: the Beginning

First and foremost, I have to confess, Fat Pride is a blatant rip off. I have a very close friend in LA that came up with the idea. He's a large man, loves being a large man, and loves other large men. He came up with the idea of starting a fat pride movement. We are told so much that fat is unhealthy, unattractive, and undesirable, and yet as a country we are becoming fatter. Fat Pride is about loving yourself, about knowing that at any weight you are beautiful, and with this blog, I am taking it a step further and proposing that it's about figuring out who you are inside and becoming that on the outside. When you take pride in your fat, you've decided how you are going to wear that fat, instead of it deciding for you.

A friend of mine recently helped me realize that a very large portion of feeling fat, and being ashamed of, or hating your fat is psychological. Because of this, I will share with you my most intimate feelings and fears, hopefully to all of our benefit.

I thank you friend for taking this journey with me. CMG